I published this post last night then started worrying (story of my life) that it wasn’t worded right or people would misunderstand what I was trying to say, so I reverted it to a draft. Then this morning when I went to Bible Study Fellowship, the hymn we sang was “Jesus Paid It All” and I knew I needed to publish this. (You’ll see why.)
I am not one of those people who makes new year’s resolutions. In fact, I refuse to. No one (including me) ever keeps them. BUT I did decide to set some goals for myself this year. I am a pro at wasting time if I don’t have something pressing to do, so I wanted to set goals to make the action I needed to get there, well, pressing. I also wanted a place to display them so I would see them every day. (Side note: I created a daily schedule for myself to also help me not waste time, which I’ll share in another post if anyone is interested.)
This may be common knowledge to everyone else, but did you know you can easily write on glass (and mirrors) with a dry (and wet) erase marker and it comes right off?? I discovered it when I tested out some memory verses on our bathroom mirror.
So I went to Hobby Lobby to get a frame, which led to hours of me wandering around the store in craft heaven. What I really wanted to do was get an unfinished wood frame and do some cute stuff with it myself, but I have learned my limits and when to say no. So I bought one that looks distressed and I’ll just pretend I did it.
Next, I needed a background. You could use anything – scrapbook paper, colored paper, or heck – even a brown paper bag! I chose a page from a hymnal and chose this hymn specifically. I wanted it to serve as a reminder that even if I accomplish the goals I have set for myself, it is not my doing, it is Christ’s ALONE. All to Him I owe. He is the one who gifted me with whatever inherit personality traits will get me there, and I always want to remember that.
So I took the page and placed the glass over it to cut it to fit. Normally I would trace on the back, but I needed to see exactly what would be showing in the frame so I just traced very lightly with pencil.
Then I stuck it in. If you don’t want to write anything on it, it looks great as is. Find a cute frame and put your favorite hymn in there!
Because, as you can see, I ruined it with my 3rd grade boy’s handwriting. For real – is there a class you can take on how to get cute handwriting? If I wanted to spend more time I could have printed something out and traced it, but that was too much effort.
In church last Sunday the pastor referenced these verses, and I started thinking about them in relation to my goals. I’ve read them before, but this time they stuck out to me in a whole new way (funny how that happens all.the.time.).
Thus says the Lord: “Let not the wise man boast in his wisdom, let not the mighty man boast in his might, let not the rich man boast in his riches, but let him who boasts boast in this, that he understands and knows me, that I am the Lord who practices steadfast love, justice, and righteousness in the earth. For in these things I delight, declares the Lord.” Jeremiah 9:23-24
I just loved that. And it spoke to me about something I have been struggling with lately. I feel weird even saying it. I have known for a LONG time that I struggle with fear of failure, but lately I have realized I also have a fear of success. That somehow if I succeed in my goals/dreams that it will automatically mean I won’t be as close to the Lord or that I’m selfish or evil or prideful. But these verses don’t condemn the wise man for being wise or the mighty man for being mighty or even the rich man for being rich (disclaimer: I am in NO way saying *I* am wise or mighty or rich). They simply say don’t boast in those things. YOU didn’t get them for yourself. I realized that not going for things that God is calling me to do based on my fear of success is the same mistrust in God that my fear of failure is.
I don’t know what next year holds, but whatever happens, my prayer is that I would hold fast to the Lord and serve Him wherever He leads me – whether it’s into success or into failure.
I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do all this through him who gives me strength. Philippians 4:11-13